Charity Work^^

I just love to be involve in this kind of activity, meaningful and helpful^^ I always think that if you help ppl more and see what other is suffering about instead of wining about ur own life...u get to know yourself more, more importantly, love yourself more~ Life is wonderful if u can just see the beauty of it^^

Our activities are great, I got a little cut at my thumb but nothing serious and I can really see their happiness when we play, when we give out our love^^ I was hosting the game, so my voice is a little affected but it's worth it^^ I am exhausted when I got back to hostel but warm and full^^ Many pictures was taken but I haven't seen it yet, hopefully my chairman can upload ASAP^^ I would love to do more of this and have more memories taken in^^

Ice breaking stage^^

I decided to buy a birthday present for a friend and after choosing for quite some time, finally decided that a mini remote car will be perfect^^ It's strange to know that UTAR have so many weird shortcuts...causes a funny accident to occur, haha~ (normal for me la^^)

At night, a hostel meeting was held and we talk about some chores deviation and stuff, then suddenly when to the topic of last night which they forgot to tell me bout cooking...actually I didn't feel angry anymore after one night...and I am glad that they talk bout it because it really does makes me feel so much better and know them a lot more^^

Bad end~

Today was a great day, I get to role play as counselor in class today, I ate lunch with two nice guy, prepared my tutorial question well, went early for class, have dinner with a new friend^^ I even ate 2 bowl of rice~

However, this WAS a great day, until I went back hostel to feel invisible, unimportant and unwanted. I know I am an alien here but at least try to remember my existence... This time, I really got my heart break... even this simple request they can't do it...I am not worth to even remember? Am I really that hard to talk to? To them, who am I?

It's been so long and I have tried everything that I can, it's time to face that we can't have everything, maybe what we can't have is already destined.

Insomnia =(

Well...insomnia again the day before yesterday, it make my yesterday dizzy, painful (headache) and angry, it also make me miss today's early class =( I dnt get it, I dnt feel stress or unhappy but why does it like me so much?!?


Luckily after years of having it's accompany, I manage to learn how to manipulate it, the extra reading just turn out to be the perfect extra thing for this extra time^^ However, I still haven't manage to handle the tiredness...I just try to consume as much food as I can find~ and now my room got zero food@@ So unlike my room~ Food is a big part of my life and I happen to be born with the perfect body to consume a lot, muahahaha~ (often shock ppl~)

Maybe it's a bless in some way and I will just have to figure it out^^

Mcd, Happy =)

Today is a great day, went Mcd have dinner and ice-cream, muahahahaha.... I enjoy every moment of my life now. I now see things clearer than ever... Happiness comes easily because I have a purpose now. I see greatness in ppl and everything bad appear to be so small, no matter what happen, there is always another way to go, maybe it's slower but you will still get there.^^

Maybe I am different but I know that I am not alone, being unique is how I see myself now instead of weird.^^ All I have to do is believe in myself and accept who I am regardless on how this rigid world sees me~

Teaching^^

For the past 2 days, I have been trying to improve the English standard of a friend, I am having a very difficult time in getting her to focus... I really hope that she can absorb what I have teached and hopefully she can get what she wants in both studies and life^^ O yeah....must stay happy as always too^^ I like to see my friends happy, it makes me happy too somehow^^

I love class^^



MOTIVATION is the KEY!!!



The lecturer for my tutorial class is a bit scary at first, she is not angry or what, just that I grow up with teachers so I kinda trained myself to detect power (from those strict teachers), hahax~ after she explained her rule, I find myself motivated by her, I found confident again and there is one phrase just strike me, " when the goings get tough, the toughs get going". I have decided to work very hard to score an A for this subject. I am totaly on fire!!!! lol~

I love study^^

I am so happy because I get to study psychology, the new semester had just began and I already got a group for the moral assignment. I never wanted anything as much as this, I can't wait to start the assignment and exploring the needed skill for me to furfill my dream^^

If you ask me now, what will I like to do the most, my answer will be to read~ Study makes me feel alive and because of study, I get the chance to know new stuff and friends. I am in the most enjoyable time of my entire life^^

Early Happy Birthday to me^^

I dnt really remember my own birthday, basically I dnt remember anything but the endorphin in my body just came rushing out today~ Two cakes in one day, I am so bless, hahax~ I wasn't expecting my housemate to know my birthday but they do know and even prepare a cake and a present, I am touch and totally surprised^^

Summary before I start a new chapter

I decided to write a summary of this trimester. Erm... There are happy and unhappy incidents as always, I was drawn by temptation, affected by surroundings and made a lot of decisions, some results are not to be proud of but not bad. I was misunderstood, dissapointed, betrayed and saved.

I know that I somehow affect ppl, helped, and I sure did made one hell of an impression!!! I thought that I was unable to fit in, but then I realized that I am apart of many groups, just that I didn't notice it. The social result turn out to be quite something^^

I decided to pursue a serious relationship, which I manage to not randomly pick someone. I found my way back to drawing, started observing again, and saw unique qualities in ppl^^ My trimester turn out to be perfect in it's own way =) Plus, I notice that I ought to be more of an ego than a superego and stop being so sceptic all the time... maybe sometimes, doing the wrong thing is the right move~~

I am quite satisfied with how this chapter end and may the next one be a blast*****

Cook and lunch with bff

Well...it's not really a secret that I can't cook but I am willing to try. I went to my bff's house to cook chicken.it was not as bad as I imagine and it is kinda funny when 2 ppl who dnt really know how to cook try to cook. At least the food is still in shape, colour and taste of it is actually quite nice^^

His family is very warm and kind to me, I even get to see his NAKED pictures, haha~ I stay there for a while after lunch and he show me some namewee's video and blog, and also some web site plus feature of computers. It's been a while since we last met and this is really a memory refresh on how he look and sound like.

My fish die

Well, two days ago I was busy cleaning up that huge fish tank which is bigger than I am since my fish die... we suspect that it die because the water is too "hard" and salty... we should have change the water huh....but I never did like that fish anyway, always splashing the water when I walk pass it...



Then I went out today to buy 6 fishes which is adorable and swim so freely and active in that big tank, finally got  the fishes that don't hate me. After that, my mom and I went to buy some grocery and very lucky of me to find that plug I have been looking for a long time now, it's a plug that charges only the battery without the phone, my other phone's charger socket is ruin and today the solution came to me, hehe~ great luck huh^^

Today is a great day with the perfect weather of a little rain and breezing air, my day has ended peacefully today but it's not the end of my life story yet, it's just where it began again, with a whole new page of excitement~