Whatever~

I am feeling disorderly sad, angry and completely out of mind just half an hour ago but now I am fine again~
Fine!!! I admit it...I have major commitment issues, I can't trust anyone, I don't feel safe with ppl~ Because when you trust someone, you become vulnerable... I dnt want to be like that, I dnt want to put myself out there and become someone that can be easily hurt, I am scare of everything and can't seem to find a reason not to be~ It's normal to be scare right, so I am not ashamed of admitting it.

I guess lately, it must be something to do with my hormone or stuff... I am dedicated to search for someone that I can commit to~ I know, I try too hard~ I never knew that I was so insecure until today...I know that I am troubled but never knew that I am this desperate on finding someone that i can rely on~ I am stopping to try and letting everything go by fate without thinking of it^^

I am happy with the things are right now and maybe I do try too hard and definitely think too much but...who doesn't, we all think too much in times...besides~ it's just nature of a female I guess, haha~ I am relieve that everything is settle now and although some of it have a bad ending but at least it's an end^^

Finally have time~

It's been a while now since I last posted anything, my schedule was so pack but I like it^^ I went to do some charity work organised by a society and when I went to the old folks home, there was one couple that is so sweet together~ They were like melting me with their love.. even if the wife is sick, the healthy husband move into the old folks home just to take care of her. Aww~

I also join some new friends and one of them is very cute which is the one I teached her english. Then at moral class, lately it's been chaotic but I am sure it will end soon, and thanks to this class, I met a quite unique girl call Steph~ She is very occupied with tons of things but she is still managing it quite well^^ I found out that we might have came from the same planet, Pluto. lol~ I hope to know her more^^

Just now, I was cycling back to hostel in the rain, all soaked but...I was enjoying the rain~ even though I hate rain, this one makes me realized a lot...it's like cleansing my soul and letting me see clearly~ Just hope that I don't get sick, haha~ "cross finger"

Sprained ankle~

A morning started in the hard way, haha~ I won't necessary say that it was a bad morning because it kinda make me realize that I have some truly great friends around^^

It happen outside my hostel, I was cycling to campus like usual but when it's time for my break to come to the action, it took it's holiday for vacation I guess... with only my front break working, it causes my bike to drift then knock down three construction worker and a sprained ankle as punishment for me. T-T

In campus, comes those great friends, one of them give me a ride on his bike to go from  block to block, the other accompany me to pass those long waiting hour for the next class, I do have great friends rite? O~hell yeah~^^

I hope my leg will heal ASAP, because I really wish to go to the old folks home for charity work this Friday~ I think I will apply med and a lot of massage to help it heal faster, hopefully I can make it^^ "cross finger"