There are times when you just want to go back to a clean and tidy room or just simply wanna tidy up... and when you really wanna tidy up, you know exactly where should everything go~ Now here come the tricky part... what if the messy things are not exactly your mess? and you encounter stuff that you just don't have an exact place to put?
If this mess I am referring to is just a physical one... then it's easy, you just need to buy some shelves or just simply a wall mount rack will do. Unfortunately in my case, I just find that every time I see a physical mess, what I actually see is the source of the mess... It's like a whisper in your ear telling you this " even if you clean up right now, it's not going to matter" It's this infinite loop of broken record with just one phrase left that is bugging you...
Here's what I see, I think I am ready to be in a relationship, but I am so not ready to live with another person.... at least not when every small little things that is misplace is going to look like an elephant in the room... So what I have to decide now is... do I need to buy more shelf and really make out of the space I have or... Should I just have my own place?
I mean I like to have somebody with me and I like the convenience of having most of my thing in the right place... however, I just don't see the need to share everything and have my habit of living a life known by another person and force him to follow it... You see... if things are as easy as it seems all the time, it will be great, but this is reality that we are talking about... it means that in times like this... having a shared space is driving me nuts... if it's my own mess... I can deal with it... but even if my things are messy, I still know what goes where... the problem now is part of my daily life felt lost because everythinh seems out of place...
I don't have the proper furniture, I don't have a proper chair to watch my series and learn my ukulele... everything that is misplace just made me so down and moody~ So what is a mess right now... it's actually my life~
If this mess I am referring to is just a physical one... then it's easy, you just need to buy some shelves or just simply a wall mount rack will do. Unfortunately in my case, I just find that every time I see a physical mess, what I actually see is the source of the mess... It's like a whisper in your ear telling you this " even if you clean up right now, it's not going to matter" It's this infinite loop of broken record with just one phrase left that is bugging you...
Here's what I see, I think I am ready to be in a relationship, but I am so not ready to live with another person.... at least not when every small little things that is misplace is going to look like an elephant in the room... So what I have to decide now is... do I need to buy more shelf and really make out of the space I have or... Should I just have my own place?
I mean I like to have somebody with me and I like the convenience of having most of my thing in the right place... however, I just don't see the need to share everything and have my habit of living a life known by another person and force him to follow it... You see... if things are as easy as it seems all the time, it will be great, but this is reality that we are talking about... it means that in times like this... having a shared space is driving me nuts... if it's my own mess... I can deal with it... but even if my things are messy, I still know what goes where... the problem now is part of my daily life felt lost because everythinh seems out of place...
I don't have the proper furniture, I don't have a proper chair to watch my series and learn my ukulele... everything that is misplace just made me so down and moody~ So what is a mess right now... it's actually my life~
