Long lost tears~

I lost the ability to cry some time ago~ even if I am watching a very sad movie or someone is dying~ I feel so sad but getting watery and maybe if I am lucky, one drop of tears will drop but tonight~ I cry in a car without any effort being put in~ It just came out like that~ but the ironic part is~ I cry all the way from Ipoh to Kampar and nobody even notice~

I am done waiting for answers that will never come and results that will never present~ I am tired of dating, flirting, waiting and wanting some crap about lone relationship~ done with it~ I have no strength left since long long time ago and I am not regaining that anywhere or from anyone~

Ppl are just too bust treating their own stuff in daily life until forget about there is ppl out there that needs help~ I have been through hell and yes~ in this particular moment~ it feels like shit
~ but after this ungly cry~ I am fine again~ I am already feeling much better thanks to a 20 mins phone call~ Rumors, so what? Bad rep, so what? I am BAD, so what? I like girls, so what? I also like guys, so what? I DON'T CARE ANYMORE~

From this moment on~ I, Janice Choo Ying Yun will only live for myself~ no more unworthy waits, no more care~ BE HAPPY FOR MYSELF~!!!!!! Be happy Be happy Be happy~!!!!!!!!!

give up~

I want to be happy and smile :-) I am done with all those confusion, I am not strong enough to deal with ppl treating me like idiot, I really like her but she don't seem to feel the same~ I am ok with that, I just don't understand why don't just tell me directly~ if there is this slightest possibility that she feel the same, pls tell me directly as well, please don't play me like this~ I don't need to be in a relationship with you if you don't want to, I just wanna know~

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