"My life no longer feels like mine and my heart feels too full". The reaction from this phrase that came into my mind was this~ "WHAT?!?!"
Ironically, I have no idea what was I thinking and why does this particular sentence came to me, but I know that it came from my very own thoughts, maybe even from my heart~
I know exactly what changed me for the past few months, I know that I was happier in some part of my life and I certainly are well aware of the warm I felt when in distress but I do realized that all these came from my consent and it will no longer applied if I were to flee~
My soul is like the morning air, cooling and friendly, my body is like a pile of clay, taking any forms that it can, my mind seems to be distorted in order to descry LOVE, is it meritorious? I can't have an answer for that~
Will it cause me to trap to a beleaguered life? Will my senses kicks in when the magic substance called hormone no longer flooding my system? Who knows? Haha~
Meritoriousness blooms from within and in my case, no matter how distorted I think my life is, endurance is certainly something I am willing to give =)
"My life no longer feels like mine and my heart feels too full", my understanding in this may not clamp to logic senses, but what I get was plain fear from the feeling of being gyved half way through the process, but the second part of the sentence let me know that I will be fine from what I am getting now, at least for NOW ~^v^y
